¶Monday, December 22, 2008¶
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hey its monday and im so bored at home. one by one called to ask me out, but im just being lazy slacking at home. i dunno why but i feel like i'd lost something, but i just not sure what it is. weird right? i feel so strange now. i got many unclear doubts which i doesnt know who to ask? im so lost. my weekends are not fun at all. i kept thinking of what is bothering me. there's something that bothers me but i just dunno what it is. is it weird? yea i am weird. no one realized it even daddy. i feel like sharing this feeling, this thoughts, this uncertainity. but i dunno where to start and what to talk about. i think im going crazy. sorry annie and all i gave party a missed. i dont feel like partying that night. and i also received a call fom this company and i had to come down next morning for an interview. at first i was so excited to go as the pay was big. yea real big that can supports my huge expenses. but still i didnt attend it and i dunno why. is it because im lazy to work? or there's no one that motivates me to go? im not sure myself. i dunno. people are asking about my life. and i just say 'great' and that im enjoying life which im not at the moment. i wish to repent like seriously this coming 2009 as i feel like ive been making sins all these while without realizing it. ive gone through alot of troubles and pains this year and i really wish to see 2008 ending real soon. and even many said that im just a good girl gone bad now. ok but on one condition which no one is supposed to know just yet. i will change if THAT happens:D
so yeah time will tell.
im still missing something.
which im not sure myself.
still finding the missing pieces in my life.
I just don't know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
There's just one thing that I wanna know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
i wish i were special
you're fuckin special
Labels: the beauty fades along the way
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