how am i feeling today? well the day has only just began and im really not sure if the day is going to be good or bad. Sometimes having not know what God's plan for you for the day or for the rest of the week bugs me a little. It has only been less then a week and so much has already happen. one day can be a good day, while the next can be a bad. Sometimes a good day can easily turn sour within seconds.

How i took one step to move on from one boundary to another. how i made decisions for my future. how i choose to admit and learn from the mistakes i have made but also have taken the time to forgive the people who have done the same to me.

I have to be honest there right now im feeling indifferent to alot of things. Alot on my past, alot on my present and if you might not already guess alot on my future. but im still trying to stand strong.

I realise that holding a grudge or unhappiness and moving it into the next stage of life, never ever helped me. i think i spend nearly half my life never being able to forgive. been a bitter old hag, who only pretends to be ok, but inside im still hurting. and if i could change alot of things, i think i would.

A few days back a stranger asked "are you okay? you seem lost." and it made me question myself. 0-0 I have this blog, so it will keep emotions and moments like this, which may just last for a few hours, be remembered.

One thing for sure, somethings never change. I still get hurt and i still get angry but i guess thats just really why they call us HUMANS.

So ask me again at the end of the day, how my day was and whether it was to be happy, angry or even a day where im in tears. it would be another day i can be me, and it would add another memorable moment in my life, i will one day learn to reflect back on.