Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live

2010-06-28T23:58:00.001+08:00

moved:)

2010-06-26T14:20:00.000+08:00

“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

2010-04-20T17:14:00.001+08:00

Behind every girl or boy with trust issues, its their EX who made them that way..

2010-04-20T16:51:00.001+08:00

2010-03-15T16:05:00.000+08:00

BEAUTIFUL WEEKENDS SPENT!
zirca-zouk.
EDDIE HALLIWELL.
splendid time with love.
great people.
just love the way it was..

2010-03-05T07:00:00.000+08:00

Maybe who we are isn’t so much about what we do, but rather what we’re capable of when we least expect it.

2010-03-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

2010-03-03T11:33:00.001+08:00

Woke up to a very innocent and cute text message this morning :)

2010-03-02T12:40:00.000+08:00

2010-02-26T12:39:00.000+08:00

2010-02-25T11:27:00.002+08:00

Time please tick faster!
Thank god it's Friday tomorrow.

2010-02-24T17:32:00.000+08:00

Do you dream?

2010-02-23T18:45:00.000+08:00

hahahaha!

2010-02-19T00:26:00.003+08:00

gonna have a great weekend again..
thanks for the awesome last weekends, Love!!
i miss you so much..

2010-02-16T14:12:00.003+08:00

i had a fucking awesome weekend with Love and friends:) thumbs up!!!
happy V'day to all!
i had the most sweetest moments ever.
i love him so much.

i can conquer the world with one hands, as long as you are holding the other

one love one heart one!

2010-02-10T10:45:00.000+08:00

2010-02-10T08:50:00.000+08:00

2010-02-09T09:35:00.000+08:00

"That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time."

2010-02-08T19:24:00.003+08:00

There are times when I want nothing more than to look you in the eyes, because it's when we're looking at each other in silence that we end up saying the most.

2010-02-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

wavehouse, zouk, love's crib, home club.
the sweetest 19th birthday i had.
the SWEETEST/GREAT surprise ever.
the best party people.
the best love ones.
the best boyfriend!:)

2010-02-07T02:00:00.000+08:00

2010-01-22T11:50:00.001+08:00

"There is no such thing as the perfect soul mate. If you meet someone and you think they’re perfect, you better run as fast as you can in the other direction, ‘cause your soul mate is the person that pushes your buttons, pisses you off on a regular basis, and makes you face your shit."

kynn

2010-01-20T11:59:00.000+08:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

kynn

2010-01-17T20:08:00.000+08:00

2010-01-08T11:49:00.003+08:00

Missing someone isn't about
how long it has been since
you have seen them or
the amount of time since
you've talked. it's about
that very moment when
you're doing something and
you wish that they were right
there with you..

kynn

I'm crazy over Outerwears!, Studded bag! Everywhere is having sales.
i hate this.
give me money and i love you.
and wait it's friday!
weekends is here. i'm one happy girl!
what a wonderful world..

2010-01-07T19:25:00.003+08:00

I . AM . FUCKING . TIRED . AND . LETHARGIC

I need sleep. A whole lot of it. I've been awake for so long(feels like only:>). Aniways I started off my 2010 with a blast. Totally.

And,

Happy 2010. Hello resolutions, plenty of them.
Will it ever happen?
To me, at least.
Even if it does happens for you, it'd probably be luck (ha!)
Kidding ;) ----------- Not really, actually.

But here's the real deal. Happy 2010. May everything be awesome for you this year. When I say everything, it means EVERYTHING. Like how nice your nails would grow and how it wouldn't be chipped off. I'm only saying that 'cause my nails are always chipped off when it's long. Tsk. And again i wish for world peace 'cause i will make it happen!.

And I know i will turned 19 really soon, but as a matter of fact --
I'm still young at heart:)
weeee.
FCUK im tired..
Thank God it's friday tomorrow!!

honeyberryInTheMaking..

2010-01-05T20:00:00.001+08:00

My Favourite place to be
is inside your Hugs
Where it's warm and loving.

2009-12-30T12:19:00.002+08:00

more party/recent photos in FB:)
happy new year:)

2009-12-23T22:13:00.002+08:00

i cant get you off my mind. the smile stays constantly on my face..

2009-12-17T19:47:00.003+08:00

oh honey, i cant wait to meet you tomorrow.
only god knows how much i misses you.
i love you

2009-12-11T13:09:00.001+08:00

I suddenly missing my deary a lot! there's this aching feeling in my heart, and a longing to see him now. And hug him. =( I've dreamed of him almost everyday, and that shows how much I'm missing him.

off to HOLIDAY tmr:)
take care people

2009-12-09T11:10:00.001+08:00

Love is an unpredictable feeling. We fall in love when we least expected it, we fall in love at the point of time we're not ready, we fall in love when we are sad, we fall in love in times of sickness. So the point is really simple, who are the brave ones to keep the love going? To hold it and cherish the gift that is already there? Falling in love can be easy but to sustain it? Being together is never an easy thing, its not just about " i love you, and you love me", Its all about the risk of giving your heart and trusting the other half with it. Not everyone can do that. The past love experiences have taught me a lot of valuable things in life. I will never let anyone bring me down again . I deserve to get appreciated, to be loved, to be treated like a princess.

But now when i find the right person to fall in love, why cant i? I need more assurance. I need to believe that love can happen again. That love will be there, that love just wont disappoint me anymore.

And having Him as my one and only love, I'm sure he can take me to the better route that others cant afford to take me to... cos baby, i love you so much.... and the feeling just gets stronger each day. i feel you in me. and i miss you dearly.. cant wait to meet you soon Mr Policeman:D we gonna have a great night together soon and of course party soon!!!

2009-12-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

Only you can make this world seems right
Only you can make the darkness bright.
Only you and you alone
can thrill me like you do
and fill my heart with love for only you.

Only you can make this change in me,
When you hold my hand,
I understand the magic that you do.

It would never cross my mind
to find another lover
Cause there's no other
special one like you..

be strong Mr policeman.
ill be waiting for you.
hold on to our promises.
there's wont be changes.
only it gets better.

2009-11-30T23:32:00.001+08:00

HEY OHVOLLIES,,
Seen the moon tonight?
it's freaking lovely.
and i still remember what happened last full moon.
and it happens again tonight.
how lovely life is.

Every weekends without fail, i had a blast! Love will always came up with a plan. and as usual we always do stuffs that we didnt plan for. and of course it turns out really fun! One of the Saturday, we went for a movie date! watched paranormal activity. It was okay, or i must say scary if i were to be in their shoes, as it is based on real life story. off to Swenses for dinner. had great time there of course. it's our thing!!! foods!!! and bus-ed to Zouk. and i still remember our last joke of the day! someone went party drinking a bottle of *** and got drunk?:P haha..
aniway thanks a lot for that lovely dinner treat baby:) i want seoul garden soon pretty please?:D

And one of the Wednesday night, we went town. meet up with Shawn too. at first he wanted to drink. so we walked around and down to DG where we decided to go Marina Square instead to drink. and That is where the documentary videos started... Just a few stops before we alight, it was my idea to take videos instead of photos. so yea we manage to take 3 different series:P It was damn fun babey... end up we went BK instead to buy our meals and sit by the bay eating/talking/laughing/smoking/cam-whore. Off to home sweet home.:) we didnt drink that night becos in the morning we did something good. we donated:) so we wouldnt want to waste that good day of good deeds we did:)

And the list of good outings goes on and on..
life's pretty good..
peace! one love!

the moon makes us feel so near
although we are separated
we still could see the ring surround the moon
and that makes us so close together
i love you

2009-11-19T23:15:00.003+08:00

I want to be his favourite hello, and his hardest goodbye.

"lets steal away this movie romance."

Zouk with countless people:)
one night, one love, one dance floor, one soul.
It's a great night spent with the girls and the others, Love and he's friends.
One night marks it all.
Most importantly, the whole day and throughout the night till the next morning was spend with Love.
and i miss it now!!!
I miss the time waking up by your side.
You, wishing me good morning.
And a kiss on the cheek.
it's pretty sweet....

Fat's and Farna's birthday..
Happy 18th babes.
I know it's kinda late to post this. hehe!
Though it's a short meet up, i hope you babes had fun.
no worries more meet up soon.
our Sentosa trip have yet to be confirm.
and yea a lot more outings soon!!!
happy being legal.
Let's go parttyyy!!!!

jammy rocks!!
let's partyy together again:P

my dearfriend here have started playing tennis.
wonder if she's good at it or not:P
and what do we call her? haha!

how much you all have grown!
prettysweetbabesivegot.
6 years ago we are totally strangers.
and of course much more nerdy!
but here we are today. looking great!
miss you all busy girlies..

RandomSaturday
bumped into senget girl~jammy at ION.
she was with star.
and qas join short after.
i was actually waiting for Love and the rest.
they got something on so i decide to join them to keep me company:)
had some serious conversation and catch ups.
especially with jammy around.
bought the same dress but in diff colour.
huhu!!
and qas the crappy, makes it more lively!
it was nice people:)

Love rescue me from them and off we went dinner at Sakura:)

"i want to buy you a watch so that we wont be late for our movie show!"
sweetness!!

2009-11-17T23:54:00.004+08:00

I love my boyfriend and there are certain things about him that just turn me on. We have been together for a while now, but there are still things about him that get my motor running. He has been by my side since day one and has always loved and cared for me the same way that I have loved and cared for him. I have been in a long relationship before, but it seems like after a while things got down hill and there was nothing to do in the relationship except for call each other names and point out each other faults.

This is one of the thing i respect my Boy.~~
He is always coming up with something new and exciting to keep the relationship fresh. Sometimes we went out, sometimes we stay in and watch a movie on the couch, but no matter what we do I always feel good because I know he is right by my side. He mixes things up and we love having web-cam session!. We always have a blast dancing to our favorite music that makes us alive! I love my boyfriend because he is always shaking things up instead of doing the same things every day.

Another reason why I love my boyfriend is because he is always making me laugh. There are a lot of stressful situations that I find myself in everyday, so it is always nice to relieve that stress by listening to him telling me something funny. The things he says and does are enough to turn anyone’s bad day into a much better day in an instant.

I love my boyfriend a whole lot. I love my man with all my heart and know he feels the same way about me. Our relationship has not reached that "downside" point where we start calling each other names and pointing out the bad things about each other and I hope it never will.:)

" There are times in your life, where you feel as if everything around you is annoying and irrelevant; a time when people can be cruel, and life can be heavy, when you want to run away. But think about it. If you run, there will always be problems. Someone will always dislike you or even snatch your joy. It's about how you feel about you, how high your self-esteem is, and how low your tolerance level is. Life is a matter of love and luxury. Don't let the ones who don't love you, take away your luxury."

" Make everyday special. Own it. Enjoy it. Bask in the glory of life. Appreciate the gift of your own life."

my boyfriend did dance for me:P

2009-11-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

You made my world a beautiful place to live in..
Never knew how it happened or when..
You just came into my life and make it yours

The only place in the whole wide world
Where i would like to be is.. Beside you!

You are in my thoughts..
You are in my dreams..
And you are the reason for every smile i smile..

I love this feeling of love..
And i love you for all that you are..
And for all that you do..

How blessed i am to have share a relationship with you.
Someone who accepts and loves me for who i am.
Thank you for being sensitive, understanding, patient, loving and caring.
Thank you for your unshakable faith in me and your loyal support.
Thank you for spicing up my life from total darkness with rainbow colours and love from your family.
Thank you for making my life fun.
Thank you for all the beautiful ways you express your love.
I LOVE YOU

2009-11-08T14:17:00.001+08:00

I don't need or want material things, all I want is some clarity.
What am I doing here? What is our purpose?

2009-10-14T12:38:00.007+08:00

Hola all. How are you feeling today? Ok school have started. but i didnt attend school on the first day which is on Monday. it's not sad at all cos i had my hair done! haha initially i was the only one that wanted to have my hairdo. but guess what? Fat had her's too. same time but diff salon!! get it? yes no kidding

so yea she had her hair colour while i got my hair rebonded and cut! i really wanted to have a very short hair but as usual the hairdresser didnt allow me to have it. i assume he didnt know how to get it cut the way i wanted. haha! but it's fine i love this new look!! Thanks fat and elfi for that day! and elfi for helping me to blablabla. hehe!

last saturday went JB with family. 5 cars in total. as usual we spell F.U.N. reached spore at around 4 am. went Pandan our last destination, but ntg to shop. alot of fake goods. i dont wear fake goods. yes i do wear a $10 top, some looks really nice. but for a fake bag or watch, it is so not me. :)) but for guys, there's alot of cool Tees. serious! for one moment i wish i was a boy. haha.

sunday had a sweet day!

monday was a really great day for me. many things happen. okay wouldn't want to elaborate more. so on tuesday, went school with new hair! and i was kinda hyper. shaking2 my head dancing around. feels like my first day of school. haha yea after 5 weeks of holidays okay! so knew 2 new teachers yesterday. and one of their name sounds like a vulgarities. yes! hehe

its another great day too yesterday. whole day was spend with great/ laughing moments.
did something bad yest! but it was so best! feel so happy like there's no tmr. haha.

so yea here i am at home. didnt attend school again! was damn tired yesterday. reached home late and sleep later. this week is so full of plans. im so gonna declare bankruptcy! real soon. huhu but im so sure im gonna have a madness fun weekend! fri sat sun im waiting for you:))

went facebook and everyone was asking me why i didnt come school. even like some random people. haha why so shock even my classmate is on facebook while in classes. weeee!!!

today will be another great day. yes it will! so it will be 4 days straight. hopefully it continue till sun. so 1 happy week for ms kynn! huhu

Happiness is not a destination. It is a method of life.

daddy bought me a COACH bag!!! yes ive just received the pack. it's so lovely. the original brown colour with PINK! so sweet la kan my daddy nie. and i just asked him for a new GUESS wallet, i wonder if he will get for me or not. haha

Tok saya baru sahaja beli sound system and im so loving it! feel like inviting friends over tmr for karaoke session!! anyone? best giler!!! jomjom.

people berubah dengan sekelip mata dont you all agree with me? i was kinda shock la semalam when i met someone and dia macam tak suka gitu lor. hoho. okay takpe maybe there's something that i didnt know la. okay chill. takpe kynn sekarang happy2 tak suke marah2:))

okay lets stop here i dont know what im talking. i read my previous post and i laugh like hell!!! why??? look at my english.. so many errors. spelling somemore. hahaha! leave it okay saya sungguh malas.

2009-10-07T14:22:00.004+08:00

I didnt know what Love is until somoeone broke my heart.

hi friends,
it's been a month plus that i have been hiding this feeling or should i say my true self from you guys. and i didnt realised it at all that all these while what i did is just "going with the flow" or "terpakse". i only realized it yesterday went a friend of mine talk to me for hours, face to face!

suddenly i felt someone slap me hard on my face. and that awakes! Macam aleh2 tersedar gitu. i had a break up and what i am today is because of him. i started becoming the old me. "old baddass/party people that only care for myself" quoted by someone that says that to me. yes he says that im being fake all this while. like what he thinks? im playing a stage play here or something?

god is really fair to me these days, despite making a lot of sins, he answered my prayers. he's been listening to all my cry. im thankful to God. in 1 day, he showed me all. i mean everything that i have to see/hear/wanted.

i always thought mistakes makes someone better. but what i see is that an angel can be an evil at just a blink of an eye. Kalau orang da tak suke, everything about you is wrong! ive moved on put the past memories behind. but what did i just hear recently? oh god, youre no angel.

im not being strong on what ive been facing recently. what i did was just stop thinking of it and make my time occupied! that is why im always out almost everyday. but when at some point when my mind thinks of it, it's really heartbreaking.

i really thank this friend of mine that really makes me realized what im doing now didnt helps me. and if you were wait for time to heals all wounds, someone tell me, when will that day come?
i cried yesterday and promise myslef that today we'll be a fresh new day for me. its on the 7th! so yes im going out later to have fun and maybe clubbing toninght. ladies night!!

i wanna thank all my friends that have been a listening to all my cry anger sadness and all. to freinds that just know about this, please dont be shock. no one is perfect! im sorry i didnt tell some of you. like i say, ive been hiding all this inside me.

and yea i feel like removing this bloggy/site as i dont want other people that i dont really know to read and know about me. as what i see, my fb, everyday people will come and check on me. people talk about me, my life and wants to know about my daily activities. this is so beyond a friend to friend thing. it's like stalking! and everyday w/o fail pending friend request goes up and up. i dont have time to check one by one. so if anyone that added me but ive yet to approve do tell me. cos seriously, going thru one by one makes me so weakk...

and dear knoxy, thanks a millon for being there for me. and i know what u going thru is hard too but yet you just wont stop advicing me over and over again. i know im stubborn at times, do hang on yea. haha!

*will edit on my grammar once im home.
gtg.. cheerriiooosss:)

2009-10-01T02:44:00.000+08:00

Should I smile because you're my friend or cry because thats all we'll ever be? A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears, I know because I've cried.

2009-09-25T17:30:00.001+08:00

Turn On The mUsic and Get the party Started!!!!

hey Ohvollies.
Lets do some updates today. Been wanting to but im just being lazy.
First of all, Hows Raya people??? Mine was great! went geylang on the night before Raya and reached home around 3 plus am. Did some touch ups on my living room. I like the look of my living room. Theme is black & white. Cool or what? haha. Basically im the only one in this house that are over too excited for Raya. So its just me that did the deco and stuffs. Many people says that this year Raya is too slack, no excitement la and whatsoever. Whats wrong with you all? Raya is raya. Its a must to celebrate and be happy no matter what shits you guys are in. Its okay just take it that im too over excited yeah.. haha

I managed to sleep for a few hours because friends that know how excited i am, start calling me and wishing me Happy Hari Raya at 7 plus am. It was sweet and nice of them but im too tired and i need my sleep so yeah i slept back till 9 plus am. As usual my grandfather will wake everyone up. I looked at the clock and thought it was already 10 plus! I get up and get dressed and expecting guests to come early. I was like a kid seriously. Shouting and singing raya song. and yeah we did play bunga api the night before:) haha

Photos taken almost every minute. Everywhere snap snap! good bonding session. especially with my cousins of the same age. Its really fun i must say. Seek forgiveness to one another. I feel so angry when people just didnt know how to appreciate Raya, hari yang mulia. Its like, if someone ask for forgiveness and hopes for the best of you, You should me thankful right? Not otherwise. Ok takpe. At night was full of excitement. Why? MAN U FANS!!!! everyone was watching the match and of course there's a lot of roars, excitement and yeah everyone is enjoying.

I dont know why, but nowadays i like to see smiles on people face. seriously, if a stranger is smiling while talking on the phone, it makes me feel happy. When a kid smile at me, it makes me happy. When old couples walk holding hand together, it makes me happy too. i dont know?

Ive been spending my money on cab fares. To count it all i guess it exceeds $200 plus in just weeks. All these while i took the cab, i didnt know that midnight charge is 50% of your journey fare, the extra charge for pick hours too. How dumb can i be. I cant help it, im not used in taking busses. Mrt rides makes me so weak, if you miss the last bus or train, you still have to take cab right? takkan tak balik kan.... taking licience seems forever. so yeah.. haiz

I dont know how should i feel know. as if i lost my sense of "feel"/heart? Its like i dont have a heart sometimes. Dont know how to feel at some point of time. Im glad that i still managed to smile at some lame jokes. Im okay if there's people around me. But i feel lost when im alone. I kept saying to myself that ill be fine, and yeah the result is, i dont know what im feeling now.

I know my grandmother is very worried about me these days. am i that bad to make her worry of me always? but surprisingly she didnt scold me, no matter how late i reach home. I told her i cant stay at home, something's bothering me. so im always out most of the time, when im tired i will go home to sleep. so she did try all sorts of things to ask me to let out my feelings or share stuffs with her. She asked my aunts, cousins and even daddy to help her out too. she try talking to me nicely and all. haha atleast i know she love me.

im happy to see you all happy. as being happy is the top criteria in my life. i always wants to live happily. of course i will pray for all of you and wish for the bestest. its okay if you dont like the way i am or what, i still pray for you. although you dont complete my life, you did came in my life and makes many changes and of course many lessons learnt, loves i felt, presence that i need and courage you gave. you still be in my heart. and forever it will stays.
sape tak happy? haha

KYNN IS ALRIGHT DOING HER SHITSS.. ANY GREAT EVENTS JUST BEEP ME ALRIGHT?? take care! rock your life babies.

2009-09-19T14:20:00.006+08:00

HELLOOO..
*mouth shut
i cant start, cause i wont stop..
So YAY!! tmr is what day?
HARI RAYA!!!

i know my blog have been dead.
the blogger too went dead.
But now she's alive
now she's back.
with no smile attached:(

I know all my friends is pretty healthy:) haha
Happy.
And yea all in good shape.
Im happy to see that.

As or myself, life is pretty bitter these days.
I have no choice but to go through it.
Pretty thick i must say.
Thick of what?
*haha

JUST DANCE, YOU'LL BE OKAY!!
i take those words made by Lady Gaga!
Inspired by her.

i dunno what to say seriously.
i talk craps i guess.
so yea im good, do take care aites.

Berayalah dengan orang tersayang.
Bermaafanlah sebelum terlambat.
Jaga hati kesemua yang kamu sayangi.
Jangan menyesal jika mereka tiada lagi suatu hari nanti. kynn

MARI MENYANYI BERSAMA SAYA..

Menjelang hari raya
Berakhirnya puasa
Bergema takbir senja
Menyambut syawal tiba

Suasana riang ria
Terlihat sini sana
Menyeri malam raya
Terhias indah rupa

( korus )
Oh... cantik berseri-seri
Tua dan muda berpakaian serba baru
Oh... sungguh meriahnya
Miskin kaya pun turut bergembira

Selamat hari raya
Aidil fitri mulia
Semoga berbahagia
Hidup aman sentosa

( ulang dari mula )

all i want is to have a complete family.
wearing the same colour of raya outfits.
riding on the same car.
singing Raya songs in between journeys.
and taking a family photo on the fist day of Raya.

But the person i call everything just walk away..

2009-09-13T14:20:00.000+08:00

how am i feeling today? well the day has only just began and im really not sure if the day is going to be good or bad. Sometimes having not know what God's plan for you for the day or for the rest of the week bugs me a little. It has only been less then a week and so much has already happen. one day can be a good day, while the next can be a bad. Sometimes a good day can easily turn sour within seconds.

How i took one step to move on from one boundary to another. how i made decisions for my future. how i choose to admit and learn from the mistakes i have made but also have taken the time to forgive the people who have done the same to me.

I have to be honest there right now im feeling indifferent to alot of things. Alot on my past, alot on my present and if you might not already guess alot on my future. but im still trying to stand strong.

I realise that holding a grudge or unhappiness and moving it into the next stage of life, never ever helped me. i think i spend nearly half my life never being able to forgive. been a bitter old hag, who only pretends to be ok, but inside im still hurting. and if i could change alot of things, i think i would.

A few days back a stranger asked "are you okay? you seem lost." and it made me question myself. 0-0 I have this blog, so it will keep emotions and moments like this, which may just last for a few hours, be remembered.

One thing for sure, somethings never change. I still get hurt and i still get angry but i guess thats just really why they call us HUMANS.

So ask me again at the end of the day, how my day was and whether it was to be happy, angry or even a day where im in tears. it would be another day i can be me, and it would add another memorable moment in my life, i will one day learn to reflect back on.

2009-09-04T17:20:00.001+08:00

Life is always full of surprises.
Be it a good one or a bad one.
But bad ones always come uninvited.
And make us feel as if we are standing at the lowest point ever.

Not all about our life we could share with others.
But some feel dissatisfied if we wouldnt want to share our stuffs.
But some just didnt care to give us a listening ear when we need them.

What would you do?
Where would you go?
Who will you search for?
What will you tell them?

As all of us know, life is always full of obstacles. But what if it comes and keep coming and more be added on again. Could we handle it? Are we that strong?

Most importantly, who wants to hear to our cry?
And that we just cant say it out. Cant express the feelings we had. And we just didnt know where to start.

This fasting month really test my patience.
With these complicated problems in the middle of my exams.
With the changes ive been facing.
With the tears dropping from my lovely people.
With the stressed we have to live in this small heart.
And i have no idea when all this would end.

And this small heart cant take it all at one.
Shouting for help.
She needs just that.

“Keep your fears to yourself but share your courage with others.”

2009-08-31T14:30:00.003+08:00

I hate this feeling.
And i have no good reason.
Maybe if i do.
Where should i turn to?

I wish I had a magic wand
To make it go away;
I'll wave your sickness away
Until you were okay
MISS YOU Love:)

I feel so tired actually to go to school today. Starts at 8. and woke up at 8!
Rush to school hoping i could at least learn something which i missed.
And it's teacher's day today! and i dont even know that.
So my teacher was giving horlicks, raisins and other's to the students.
I was so happy to saw Cadbury Hot Chocolate. I quickly took 3 and walk away fast. haha

In the middle of this stressing week, moment in life,
I still have the time to shop.
Yeah bought two Hot dresses and a Hot strappy wedges and that makes me Happy!
One Happy Kid.

Im very sensitive okay. i guess you all don't know that part of me.:)

Ok mugging this week. yeah hope to hit my target.
EXAMS!!
COPCOP!

2009-08-30T00:59:00.002+08:00

GO WATCH!!
I LOVE THE MOVIE.

2009-08-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY FASTING OHVOLLIES:)

This was the day that we went Esplanade for a dance performance with the other dance mates.
And this was the day where i fulfill my cravings before fasting month.
And the day that i went crazy shopping and non-stop photo taking with hazel.

So two days of fasting have passed. yes, but to tell you all the truth, im have not been a good girl. i like to look at foods and always thinking of food, always hungry and always counting time for break fast. yes im that bad!

i try and try and try to study. but nothing gets in my head. frust ok! i have major exams in 2 weeks time. and have a lot to cover yet my brain is still not working. im trying to get serious nowadays and attend lessons. but do i gain anything??? only anger.

there's this teacher in my school that im starting to dislike. actually all these time. i dont wana say further, fed up already! so yeah, "save the best for the last" and "you better watch your eyes on me"... oooooo i sound so evil.*wink

2009-08-15T14:00:00.002+08:00

hello ohvollies.
at first i wanted to update about my trip to sister island.
but blogspot giving me hell, so yeah shall update perhaps another day.

time flies so fast that next week is already the month of Ramadhan, the fasting month.
so have you all Qadak what you missed last year? *wink
as to all muslim, the fasting month is the best month in the whole year.
on this very month is where people will avoid doing any sins and hope to do more and more good deeds.
i hope i will be part of them. amin
and what im looking forward, is to break fast together with lovely people.
and walking around geylang bazaar searching for great foods:) DING-DING!

i still have my dance session once a week. and now we are having Bhangra workshop.
can you imagine i need to hop for like 2 hours++ and follow by hip hop session.
ive tried Bhangra for 3 weeks and its really killing me. 7 more weeks to go.
penat+nak+rak...
and yea will be watching a dance performance at esplanade next week with my fellow dance mates:)

ok enough of that, im really eyeing for killer heels.:)

and yeah since next week is the starting of fasting month, from today onwards, i want to fulfill all my cravings.. yes!!! i will eat like there's no tmr. gain weight? no issues:)(perangai budak gemok)

ive got my Hp mini netbook just a few days ago. ermm,, it was okay2. the good thing is that it is small and very light. but i still prefer my lappy. better functions..

exams are coming again!!! this is the major ones. so yea kynn get your brain working.. chiaYO!
take care and have a great weekend:)

2009-08-08T21:03:00.003+08:00

hey people..
first of all, Love just did paintwork on hes' bike.
i love the colour choice.
thanks for the surprise Cinta.

i went crazy the other day buying 8 dresses in one day.
and still i feel i have to get a lot more.
not dresses, but heels, bags, watch, shoes (vans pumps im eying). and many more. new pair of jeans!
and yeah i need more accessories!!
i always spend on stuffs that i dont need.
even my compact powder, deodorant, lotion and perfumes,, i dont shop for them.
only when it is almost finish, then i rush to buy them.
but stuffs that i dont need i buy them in bulks.
i really need a nag. but just a bit of it. haha

and today i got myself a new pair of wedges slippers and i love them!!!

anyway,,,
im all ready to Sister Island.
very excited, eager to see the place but worried if there's not enough food for me. (ahah!)
hope everything goes well. didnt really plan the whole thing but yeah sometimes last minute works!
so yeah HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.
dont worry i will be somewhere, but still part of you.
and i will missed watching the parade.
and fire works?
but Love say maybe we can still see it from there.
if yes, it will be really great. much more exciting.
and i heard there's monkeys that loves to steal on people's food.
hopefully ours wont get stolen by them. haha!

till then, happy public holiday people!!!!
KYNN(:

2009-07-26T00:20:00.001+08:00

Naughty nursery rhymes

Jack and Jill went up the hill
To fetch a pail of water
Poor little Jill forgot her pill
Now they have a daughter

x

Mary had a little lamb
Its fleece was black as charcoal
Every time she stroked it,
Sparks flew out its arsehole

x

Spider, spider on the wall.
Ain't you got no sense at all?
Can't you see the walls been plastered?
Now you're stuck you silly bastard

:) :) :)

2009-07-25T14:41:00.005+08:00

i want to do a lot of things, i want to go there for that and there for that.
but im just too weak to do so...

*fever and cough. GRR...

have a good weekends...

XOXO

2009-07-21T22:50:00.002+08:00

You Know what?
im having my 2.4 km run tmr.
You know what?
i dont think i can run.
You know what?
i dun want to fail and retake it.
You know what?
for the first time im nervous.

Hehs. i used to be the sporty girl in school back then. when comes to sports, i will always be the enthusiastic one. i used to get golds for Nafa. then slowly drop to silver and then bronze. im getting lazier, not healthier. my running sucks in sec 5 and that pull down the overall points. and im very dissapointed about it. i almost fail for the first time okay! so yeah i hope i wont repeat them. is smoking the problem for this?

Miracles will happen i hope:) like last week, which i thought i couldnt jump for standing board jump, started practising but couldnt really get it to the point that satisfy me. but hell yeah, when it is my turn to jump, and with all the eyes looking at me, i managed to jump!!! ahahha was really happy. did better for the second trial. Hip hip Hooray!

You know what?
my friends say i dun look fat:)
but Love say my im growing fats inside me. grr

i really need to get my brain working.
i need to start studying.
and im aiming to score better,
than the previous CA!
peace(:

2009-07-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

LAZY LAZY LAZY

eat eat eat

.

I have this fear that i will wake up one day and look in the mirror, and what im going to see next is a fat big chick in front of me. Yes trust me, it keeps me thinking and somehow it scares me. well i've been eating a lot since little. infact all knows me for that including family members and friends. but recently, my eating habit become worse. i keep on eating and always hungry the next hour. and for the first time in school just a few days ago, while i was having lessons, i asked teacher for permission to go toilet but instead i went all the way down to buy two packet of snacks and a drink. ahhaa. and went school ends like and hour later, i feel hungry again. i dunno why, first thing i wake up in the morning, i will think of food. like what food im eating today and all. so please someone stops me before your friend here become one fat chick!

Just last week i bought 3 dresses and a wetlook pants and a denim vest. im eyeeing on this 2 guess handbag cum sling bag. but im waiting for Aug to see if theres any new design's coming out. im so gonna get them soon. and yes i need a pair of wedges and a killer heels(shoe). that hot levis jeans and that cute mango jeans. but i still havent get my fringe shoes and a new bag! hehs. oh yea that gold shimmery cardi! so gonna get. hope money will come quick:) cheers!

again Love is going away. JB is weekend. what a boring weekend w/o him. and that means im gonna be left all alone again! so people who are reading this. please call me up yeah .accompany me shop or eat also will do:)

didnt attend school today.was lazy. and regarding the news i received this morning, i feel like a bad girl. am i that bad? its ok shall buck up on that. aniway editing of the scripts is done and print! hazel im gona kill u, so many typing errors. nah its ok, all done now!

so yeah my house smells of jackfruit. grandma bought home 2 of them from her work place. nice! im very sleepy now. online shops is currently boring. nothing caught my eyes. so yeah ive got nothing to do now, maybe making a hot milo and eat with biscuits to end my day. a fag, wash face, lotioning and off to bed.

NIGHTS OHVOLLIES:)

2009-07-10T00:38:00.000+08:00

YES! cms script is a successful one. Ms sim didnt nag nor gave negative comments about it.
She even added that mine was good and the skills noted was very good.
The only thing is that mine was the longest scripts among the others. (maybe a script writer one day? ahahah
that shows how hard working i am.
don't worry ma'am, though ive been skipping your class, when comes to real work, i do my best. and yes im happy about it. Got my business exam result too and i passed. only left with 1 more business article to go. but cms didnt stop there, there's still more to come.. ok kynn, buck up yeah! no skipping of lessons and coming to school late.

not only me, Love please buck up too. no more skipping of lessons. im worried ok! ahaha please make me proud dear. weekends is coming soon, YIPEESS..

to celebrate this happy day of mine, i thought of having dinner outside, ( eat again!(:)but Love slept early. he called to wake me up. and when im awake, he sleeps. very good. ahaha miss ya! see ya tmr..

i dont feel like coming tmr to school seriously, but yeah nvm will just attend school.

Eileen dear, dont think that you are alone, i'm always there to be your listening ear. in fact us, girls. we know deep down you feel alone and definately not okay. i really understand how it feels dear. i was shocked too. its really sudden. i didnt expect it, what else you. i know its hard for you, i mean really hard but one thing for sure, we all are there for you when you need us. dont feel shy to let out your anger or sadness to us. yes we love to gossips so much, we just talk less about our personal life, but we do care for each other. i'm glad to hear you coming to school tomorrow. be strong babe:)

2009-07-07T23:59:00.001+08:00

I think i'm dying by the time i completed this CMS scripts.

oh my, kynn come on! you can make it.

CHEER ME ON PLEASE SOMEONE:)

MS SIM PLEASE GIVE some POSITIVE COMMENTS FOR MY HARDWORK.
i do this all alone!
have mercy on me

2009-07-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

i just dont understand why people can just say what they like without realizing that they are hurting that someone. or when someone did that to them, they will make a big fuss. but when they do it to others, its like nothing to them, they feel that they are not hurting that particular someone, but actually they do. why people cant hear negative comments about them? do they think that they are always right? or they just couldnt care much what other's think about them? seriously it just kept me thinking.... searching for the right answer..high and low

Aniway meet up with the girls today. had lunch at seoul garden. halfway, john came and joined us. walked around bugis awhile, apparently nothing caught my eyes, only those fringe shoes which i will consider buying after Love give he's comments. haha! went to haji lane. at first, we thought of looking for clothes at those tiny boutique. but we ended up doing manicure! ahaha. my nails look fresher now. not too bright colour. just a sweet pinky nude colour. train-ed home and Love called and say that he's going bugis with knox. GRR! never call me earlier, we can meet up for late dinner or something.. it's okay. let Love have he's time outside. Had been meeting him almost everyday. ahha.

school starting really soon. bev assignment almost completed. cms assignment just started. hehs! anyway meeting kinahlurve tomorrow and gonna do some shopping:)

Lovelovelove come back soon. miss your voice. hehe!

2009-06-28T23:05:00.004+08:00

baby is not feeling that well yet he still wants to go out with me. we went many places today. first stop is to get something (business stocks):), went to Hazel's place to get ... but she's no where to be found. upset! went beach road as Love wants to get something too and we had lunch there.

Went a bit of riding and sight seeing. it was great! i just love it just like the old times. went town. and i had mars ball with ice cream. yumyum:) and dinner at burger king, the best fast food that we loved:) but Love let me eat most of it as he feel a bit sick. and yeah im so full right now. i mean just now. now, im hungry as usual:) ahahhas

DEAR MJ?? may you rest in peace. i love ur songs, your moves man.-_-

Bestfriend, i love you just the same. screwed all those words. miss ya!

And seoul garden with the rest this week!!

MY DEAR GIRL
she has been missing since April 2009.
if anyone knows about her whereabouts please contact me. asap
and she will treat you for a dinner as a reward.:)

2009-06-24T23:44:00.001+08:00

issint she damned effing hot?

well im getting fatter each day.
i just cant resists foods.
tonight itself, every TV breaks, i go to the kitchen.
ate 2 bowl of soups, 2 plate of rice with different dishes, snacks, cookies, cakes. in 1 night!
including soft drinks too..
and my temptation of having good foods is getting worse.
i 'need' seoul garden, new york pizza, chicken carbonara and lamb chop!
that is just for now:)

nights ohvollies. have an awesome week!(:

2009-06-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

Happy Father's Day to all and my only Dad. Texted him some wishes and advice. And Love said that dad and i were funny texting each other 'funny' msges.

First of all, to view my page, please use Mozilla Firefox rather than Internet Explorer. Its Views better. And for those than still using ie to surf the net, please do change to Mozilla. as ie sucks nowadays.

Been pretty tired these days, didnt attend extra lessons last thursday. Why make holidays if you have to come down to school for extra lessons right? And i heard there's class gathering at ECP, cycling. ahaha even my teacher came down with her daughters. Class bonding or what? I didnt attend too. Ok wtf..

Yesterday went simpang bedok to meet ex-damaians. I came late so i share table with Love instead of joining them. Afterall, there's a lot of them. What should i call? CHUTCHUT train? ahha. I do missed them however i do see changes individually. Everyone become different each days. Awkwardness feels.

ITS GSS now right? i havent got the time to go town to shop! but i did get myself two tops and a dress which i simply love! I'm addicted to online shopping all over again. And each day i would ask Love to go shopping with me. And all he did was, "give me your card and ill keep it, enough of your shopping". HAHA!

2009-06-16T23:05:00.001+08:00

hello ohvollies..
how's my blog new look?
since im having my holidays now, i shall update more often yea.

first of all, i miss Love. although i just met him yesterday. 1 day seems a year man.. why i say so? okay let me share okay. imagine you stay with your Boyfriend in the same roof for 3 days 2 nights. every time you see him around you. before you sleep, you see he's face. when you wake up in the morning, he's beside you smiling. you eat together. you watched tv and spend time all together.and when you dont get it anymore, you will missed it right? why? cos im back at home and Love is not beside me anymore. making me feel like crying. i miss LOVE!

we texted each other. keep calling each other. and keep reminding that we missed each other. we getting better and stronger each day. and now i feel like hugging him tightly.. i couldnt start my day without texting him and couldnt get to sleep without hearing he's voice. IMY Love!

okay lets talk about my blogshop. REDLYME started its business on the 1st of June. for 5 days, it was mine. then hazel decide to join me. so now REDLYME is ours. it started well, there's good response from buyers. of course buyers do have their own characteristics. the one i wanted to share with you all is the most funniest buyer. ahaha. she added me at msn, and we start to chat. firstly, she didnt ask about the apparels she's interested in. but she's more interested in me. she keeps asking questions about me first. ahaha but the most funniest part is when she send me her skin tone photo. and telling me how dark she was. how skinny she was and what shades of colours suits her. ahahha!

met her last saturday together with other buyers. after counting the profits i made, it was really good for a start. so friends or bloggers who is reading this, please visit my blogshop and support aites.

ever heard of someone that have not got he's license but already got a bike? yes my dear fren here did. and knoxy, im gonna miss my bike... take good care of it. cheers!

"Yes people do change all the time. but when people you call your closest dont care about you. what does that call?"
falling apart

till then.
im hungry.
and wanna do some online shopping.
and i cant wait to meet Love for dinner tmr:)

2009-06-14T12:02:00.007+08:00

HOLIDAYS are here. Its time to relax, have fun and party. Well actually i already feel the holiday mood 2 weeks ago. So thats explain the skipping of lessons, coming in to school at noon and ends school early myself! haha.

Initially the plan was going clubing with the girls. But i end up clubing with Love and Knox. Follow by Eileen and boyfriend. And we saw Samuel too! Of course i had a good time dancing. Meet Eileen and she ask me to top up the ticket to enter Phuture with her. but seriously the RnB song sucks, so dissapointing. Eileen went off early to meet their friends. So i went back Zouk and end up dancing till almost 4 am. Yeah i do enjoy myself, seeing fanatics dancing and also some funny stories about knoxy's ..... Saw SUE! ahaha for 5 years we end up seeing each other at the dancefloor instead. So we dance together. There's others that i saw too. Anyway Samuel got really drunk! Samuel is a good boy in school but he got drunk in club. AHAHA

Me and knox slept over at Love place. While he was cooking for us:), knox and i watched the Uninvited. Knox have watched the movie so what he does was asking me questions so that i understand every single parts of the movie. Yeah including some pathetic qns. ahah. Knox took he's riding test in the morning and he passed! Goody good man. So 2010 1 SP aites. ahaha

okay i shall end my post here. i just woke up and boyfriend left to fetch knox and meet my buyer. Thanks baby for the delivery:) Photos wil be uploaded soon.

Im kinda dissapointed with some people that just dont know how to appreciate friends. If you think you can live w/o friends. By all means!

take care ohvollies:) and do visit my blogshop(and hazel's) at http://redlyme-ohla.blogspot.com/
selling brand new apparels+ my trash= REDLYME

2009-06-06T13:51:00.005+08:00

HOLA OHVOLLIES:)
i know that my blog is dead. Due to:

busyness?
lazyness?
crappyness?
happiness?

All of the above:)

Haha. Alrites i shall do a proper update soon. yes i promise that.
Exams are over. I mean just left with 1 more paper.
Holidays is coming..
Shopping treats it will be for me:)
I smell 'Hooray2'.. Got it? Its okay..
Ahahhaha ohlala alrightss imm waitingg forr goodd foodss noww as todayy iss a familyy dayy for us so yeah GOOD FOODS yumyum!!! * makin sihat ye saye..
ok this is crap update.
have a good weekends:)

2009-06-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that adores me

"We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same."

2009-05-31T12:54:00.006+08:00

Hey ohvollies!
Sorry for the lack of updates. been such a lazy ass nowadays. as usual life's been good. sad, depressed or stress is not healthy!(avoid them). but im kinda thinking how to complete my 2 assignments and two papers this week! there's a lot to do and a lot to study. and so little time..
so do wish me luck.

Anyway its sunny day today! meeting Love later, and we gonna have lots of fun. No one is at home now, and im so hungry because there's no food. and talking about food, im cravings for something good today.. *winkwink. and yea, i watch kabhi khushi kabhie gham yesterday with cousin, and on the first cd, i already start crying. so he said."kak, takmo nangis dulu, save your tears for the 3rd cd.." LOL! it was a good movie indeed!
I just cant wait to end this week really soon, followed by next week with 1 more paper and there it goes the HOLIDAYS.. as usual i always plan my holidays in advance. as i mentioned in my previous posts, im gonna have a vacation with Love. and i cant wait for that + shoppings with GSS season around now.

School life: okay. as usual me and hazell are the tag-team champion. attend school late together, skip lessons together, and many others. i shouldnt skip anymore lessons from now on. alright kynn? haha anyway, didnt attend school last friday. AFD results is out! and i obtained a B! that's really good. hahaha. okay we'll shall see how i did for the next 3 papers.

*i found sue's blog + amanda's blog.
okay i do miss them. its been years.. and we used to be really close..:P

2009-05-18T20:50:00.011+08:00

I TOOK THE SPORE FLYER

YESTERDAY!!

with aunt and cousins

shall upload more photos of us when i got those photos..

FUN
SCARY
NICE SCENERY
GREAT EXPERIENCE

GO AT NIGHT! Spore looks better at night..

next i would love to go to:

Jurong Bird Park
Sentosa Beach and 4D Magix
Pulau Ubin
KL
Movies
Vacation with Love
Zouk

i would want to do/buy soon:

hair revamp
sell of my stuffs
and buy new ones:)
Guess bag
that cool shoe (not sure what its called)
Chomel watch
satin black shorts
DC sneakers
get whiter (im becoming darker and darker) and i hate it! grr
SHOPPING!!!

.
.
.
.
.
.OK there's really a lot to list down actually..
if money can fall from the sky
IF you're RICH, come tell me..

and i really cant wait for the HOLIDAYS...

hugs & kisses(:

2009-05-16T23:42:00.001+08:00

Life have been pretty good for me. Especially with Love around. Been really busy with school and spending time with Love. So that explain the lack of updates. Anyways, i got into Dance as my cca in school. First lesson was cool shit, the people were great and the dance steps were cool. And yeah, exams is coming, so hope to do well for it. So afterwhich i will have a good holidays which will be on June. I couldnt wait for it as Love and i had planned a vacation for the two of us.:)) hehs.

Aniways we celebrated our anniversary last Thursday at Clementi Sakura. the biggest Sakura here with two-storey of FOODS! Its our second time going there together. We just love foods. So yes that is why we are there in the first place. There's also a smoking area, so you could take a break and smoke, and continue back eating. cool right? Let the photos explain everything.. enjoy..

The more I know you, the more I love you Baby. For 2 years weve know each other, there's a lot of obstacles we faced. Ups and downs we went through. Dramas, stories, cry, laughter we had seen. But maybe, i never love you the same i did for 2 years back. Cos now, i love you more Baby. hehes. Im just so addicted to you, your smile, your voice, your touch, everything about you baby.. `I love you more than any word can say . I love you more than every action I take . I'll be right here loving you always."
& He's the only guy that can make my cheeks turn rose red through a text/call. . . =)

"For yesterday's memories, today's love, and tomorrow's dreams.. I love you Darling."

i miss whoever that misses me.
nights ohvollies..

2009-05-10T00:03:00.001+08:00

Met Kinahlurve today. really miss this girl of mine. it has been so long since i last saw her. She do look pretty sweet as always, only that i find that she's pretty thin too. what happen babe? haha. we are the 'eating' babes, so keep eating more!. yea maybe asking her to watch dance competition held next weekend too. which was what we always do. haha. ive forgotten that today is Vesak day. so that explain the crowd today. first stop, Mustafa centre. this was the first time i took public(train) there. as always Love would ride me there. so yea, being such a dumbo, i just follow her as im not sure myself how to get there. hehs. after that we went town. our place! town is where we always go. so this kinah have not been to town lately, so she's not sure where to go and all. and this time, i lead her! hehe. had our late lunch at far east. walk2, saw some friends, just smile and walk away. and yea, saw BEv and NEt too. they planned to study but they ended walking around town instead. haha.
i miss her so much yea, i had a good day with you babe. the stuffs we talked about.. awww,, rindu kamu banget!!!
aniway i miss all the people that i used to see every morning, my sec 5mates.. hope you all are doing fine. Daddy left for Philippines. wtf dad. just see what happens when youre back..
and yea watch the movie TAKEN. nice one. i love the father character. i would be proud to have a dad like him.
lastly, Love is busy playing he's game now, and he forget to call me. call me baby...its my sleeping time.. Grr..

NIGHTS OHVOLLIS:)

2009-05-05T23:55:00.001+08:00

HOLA OHVOLLIES....

Watching this movie soon with Love. Heard a lot of reviews. but i still want to rate it myself.
HOORAYYSS!

WORLDWIDE FESTIVAL coming this week.
i wanna club with baby soon.
take a peep at http://www.festivalsg.org/worldwidefestival/
who's going??:)
i think beach weekender sounds really fun.
well it will be flooded with ang mohs i guess. hehs

Last weekends. outside TANGS, town area. promoting NIXON and worldwide festival.
good music that make us go Groovies.
jammy, fat, kynn + knoxy(not in pic)

LOVE did this sticker for my helmet. cool issint it? it was my face in silhouette form. yeah! exactly how the photo looks like. hehs! dont play2..

check out this store! cool stuffs...

i shall update soon.
there will be some lovely dovey thingy coming up soon.
check out my next post.
*busy mood

2009-05-02T21:50:00.002+08:00

Shishaa at alladin's, haji lane with classmates.
we're pretty bonding i must say:)
Dear eileen, miss busy couldnt make it.
and this was the night where me and hazell took photos like theres no tomorrow. haha!
mind us..

miss simplicity, miss chatterbox, miss careful, miss all-goes-well

shaf says: cannot too near cos haven together. hahaha!

newly in love birdies:)

he got a problem with he's eyes:))

solo ian, sad girlfriend not there.

seesee he's eyes. haha!

camwhore babes

Love is at JB.

and im fucking missing him.

and im gonna meet him real soon.

and hug him damn tight for leaving me alone. GRR

2009-04-26T15:05:00.001+08:00

Honestly, i dont know why. I struggled maintaining ........ and I simply couldn't bring myself to that level of pure happiness I once had in 2007. I knew about it all this while. Ive been at my strongest point.. I realised I only have myself to please and only I can attain that amount of happiness once again. No matter how hard i tried, it still wont completes. I wish I could do something to allow you to heal while you were suffering. I'm giving myself all the time in the world to adapt to these drastic changes. One thing for sure, it's not going to be easy for me but I truly believe that I should hold on to the saying "time will heal all wounds". and that there will only be one,you...

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like your enjoying a fairytale castle and the next thing, a boy came and kicks those sand castle youve built. got it? nevermind..

Someone in my facebook friend list(wouldnt want to mention the name) just took the What club are you? quiz and got the result: DBL O..S

Which means,
DBL O: Cheap drinks, rowdy crowd, small spaces, that's for you. Not forgetting the type of people that frequents the place. If you're a girl, you belong to the no-eyebrow-must-draw-with-eyeliner-bought-from-Aries-or-Chameleon category and if you're a guy, you belong to the tattoo-satu-badan-mesti-mahu-langgar-lu-ada-hal-stare2-kat-gua community. Hehehe. Jangan marah yer.

haha i couldnt agree less. i laughed my whole lungs out!! funny issint it? tak boleh angkat la sey.
anyway it's raining here. which is a good thing for many as it has been a long hot weeks. killer hot weather. but i must say, Rain rain go away.. i wana meet Love can? im super dupper hungry and no more maggies stock.

build me up, buttercup.
cheeseburger? make it double.
bring me some foods from adam's. i promise i'll be good thereafter.

2009-04-20T22:00:00.001+08:00

DEVASTATED!!!

fcuk my uncle with his fcuking attitude. he's being using my laptop for straight dont know how many days. and only today i touch my lappy. and what i see? my lappy is dirty with ciggs ash, the screen is dirty, msn, bearshare, biTorrent, mozilla and some photo editors and dont know what else are gone!! and i need to re-download everything back. such an ass man. i hate it. when i question him, he just stay quiet, BISU or what... and i need to upload photos to msn again. argghh! so old but bad attitude wont go away. haiyoss.

another thing was that he scrolled down my songs folder and took some HOUSE music and set it as he's ringtone and message tone. and whenever it rings, he will take he's time to answer it. try to show off isiit. it's old song lor. please! you dont even know the hot tracks now. afterall you got all the songs from my lappy. show off for what. think your parents will dance along with the songs issit!!!

enough of that. school was fine today, as usual i was half an hour late. able to catch up on accounting lessons. learn ledger today and i still able to remember what Lubna taught me in sec3. and not forgetting tmr i have BEV test.. and time check, its 10pm. at 11 is my ANTM and i still havent study anything. im joing dance as my CCA. this sat! and hazell, bev, and net joining too. so excited and cant wait for it. after that we're planning for an outings:)) learn something today, that some smokers do not "tarik" when they smoke. why waste money on spore ciggs right. better dont smoke. majority of my class smoke, and every break or in middle of next lessons we will smoke..so how KYNN? quiting? ermm.....

Love pick me up from school. its been so long since i had a long ride. went to he's crib and he cooked for me!! yumyum loves he's cook best! even though it was just a simple meal. i had fun. tried diff flavours of bubble tea. i had a great time with Love today. he always completes me. miss you already darlinggsss...

2009-04-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

i was bored so i came up with this. hehs

went to my usual salon after school today while the other QC hang out together.:(

initially i wanted to cut it short. i mean really short!

but the hairdresser sey dont cut la keep it long.

then i was thinking ogf highlighting or colouring it.

but the hairdresser say my hair colour is nice enough.

and bestfriend cant agree less.

afterall Love's and my friends didnt agree of me cutting it short.

so........ i ended up with treatment + cut.

more of just trimming the split ends.

yes im being so gatal today to waste my money on hair.. woohoo..

heavy sheesha photos.
haji lane, last week.
with dear A3s

I MISS LOVE!!

2009-04-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

Hello gorgeous people. many have been asking about my new school, my first day and how the peeps like. so here i am answering all your doubts. hehs

Basically its okay for a start i would say. cannot comments any further as it only been two days. first person i talked to was shafi. he talked to me, but i didnt realised him and actually ignored him! omg i was so embarrassed... first impression, KYNN is pekak! haha. had ice breaking, the games were lame seriously, but there was a joker in my class, irfan that makes it somehow lively. of course first day make friends. i just ask their names and which school they are from not any further. but after knowing eileen and hazel, we do asked more about our self. after all we stick together.

Second day was team building sessions. we had amazing race. but we didnt run at all. just walked all the way but managed to come in first. but overall we won 3rd. and im proud to say this,, our cheer is really cute!! haha
as accounting is the Most popular course in all business Hnitec courses, our attendance are really strict for this week. as many are still waiting for places in my course. so whoever that have bad attendance will be asked to leave. so yeah thats the reason im being such a good girl this week, save all the CAbuts to next week. haha!!

Tomorrow report at 8 for PE. its been 5 months since i last work out. lazy and heavy butt! from 9 to 830 to 8. getting earlier and earlier each day. though i stay nearer than the others, but im still late! reason? i cant wake up early. argghh!! so yeah LOve, please do your job to wake me up:)) majority of my class smoke,be it girl or guy. so yea will have a smoking sessions together soon.. rosakkk.. anyways i havent choose any CCAs. any recommendations? i saw Rizal aka kastam, he was in the sports management course and he join Karate!! hahaha.. laugh out load people...
lastly, i miss the sec 5s.. jac where are the shisha photos?? and maybe sat will have girls day/night outs? c ya:))

Stay healthy!
love, its our day today!!IMY
im cutting my hair short! i mean really short! chihuawa!

2009-04-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

One Bittersweet Week.
hmmm feeling so weird now...
i can't get to bed.
partly because it's school tomorrow.
after all i rested for 5 full months.
partly because im really2 nervous.
meeting and making new friends. =(
partly because i cant believe that tomorrow is the starting of newschool.
new mates, new environment, everythings different.
partly because i have to wear uniforms.
i cant be a fashionista like my friend's do.
partly bacause there's lots of minah, mats and YPs
their looks just make me pwwee.
partly bacause i have to wake up early morning.
which i used to waking up late and sleeping late.
partly bacause im just not ready.
not ready for a new change.
and i miss my secondary school mates, teachers and most events held.
thanks people for the comfort and sweet words, motivation talks.
much appreaciate, its really sweet(:
yeah i miss Love too.
after all i dote on him alot ok.. lol

2009-04-07T00:11:00.003+08:00

went back to school, DAMAI today to take our testimonial. and i just realised ive not even read it yet. haha. first thing we did was eating from cik Fatimah's stall. really missed her cooking so much. and i tried the new veggie dish, very nice! talked to her and wow improvements, she speaks in Eng now. hehe. chatted with dear miss nor, adrianna qistina, nice baby's name. took testi and went on our separate ways. went wit's place and off to novena. velocity thanks alot i love ya! ive got what i wanted. Qas i know you know the public dunnoe,, sshhhh secret! thanks yaw. im so happy because of that. walked around and we do enjoy ourself there although it just the 2 of us. then train-ed to bugis.. wit bought a dress, was finding something but i just couldnt get it. i mean there's plenty but it doesnt really impress me that much. nowadays nothing suits my expectations, i mean if i shop i'll grab everything which i thinks is nice, doesnt really looks at how much it costs. but now, although its really nice or super cheap, i wont easily get excited or something, as im more concern in buying school stuffs first. okay thats an improvements. hoohoo. than bus-ed to parkway parade. aisyah being irratating going watsons to guardians both twice looking for the same thing. its okays. aniway if you all heard of cotton on having a sale at parkway, dontt go! nothing much yaw.. had dinner and cabe-ed home.

was webcaming with love. doing our usual crazy stuffs when my webcam go crazy. so he watched movies while i blog hopping and do some research. chatted with knox. he chat with me using his comp while his lappy webcam on. really nice view! which is he's back. so i teased him, your motive of webcam is to show your new compchair? haha. we talked about muay thai and he said that im being ex silat is so kentalss. haha you dont play2 huh. im good at playing VIRTUE at ps2. fight2 ok. haha. aniways, your pm is well said. short and sweet!! chill and enjoy life. c ya around soon.

love is busy watching movie non stop. he's ps2 is with me. haha. its been such a long time since i play those. my ps2 is spoilt, gone case. no one plays mario at ps2 only me. haha. baby, im addicted to it. im a gamer now so dont disturb me while im playing. aniways you have your ps3. better sey....

and yes i miss you. thanks for your drop by calls and sweet short msgs when im outside. love you baby!

good night readers.

sweet dreams..

2009-04-02T23:20:00.002+08:00

" You inspire me to be better, You challenge me for the better, Sit back and let me pour my love letter... "

i just cant get enough of him...

my addiction.

on Tuesday after registration accompanied by dear bestfriend, meet Love. went Vivo to search for my school bag and shoes. had lunch at subway! but i still want my pastamania soon yea. aniway searching for a nice black shoe is harder than i thought. cos i only go for sneakers rather than any black shoe and furthermore it should be 100% black. finally got it at cityhall the same one i saw at suntec. wanted to buy lacoste but ended up with nike. so yea its settled! thanks for accompanying me Love! next is school bag, but not so soon as ive not yet given any book lists. so that can wait. meet Love today, but i still wants to meet him tomorrow, i dont know why i miss him so much. and i cant wait for our Pulau Ubin trip this sunday.

bestfriend is going off for three days, fri-sun for her camps. i wish you all the best. make many friends aites! have fun. dont worry too much. im sure youll have a blast time making new bunch of crazySPfriends. enjoy dear!!

2009-03-30T15:59:00.006+08:00

OH BOY, im counting every hour, every minute, every seconds just for your return. Please be back NOW!!! I miss you so much.. ARGGHHH!!

its been 3 days.no meet ups.no long talks.no sweet messages.

what's more your hugs, your touch, your kiss.

babylove, 1 word 2 say 3 words 4 you,

I LOVE YA + I MISS YOU:))

*okay im being so spoilt here*

despite knowing that i couldnt reach him on his cell phone,

i do still call and text him,

i know im Cute:)) whattodo miss mah.

others couldnt meet their boyfriends for weeks or months.

but who cares. not me!

hehs

ive Deleted friendster! byebye cyberfriends.

2009-03-29T01:00:00.005+08:00

im in a BUSY mode....
Time keeps passing. I keep taking what seems like terribly small steps ahead into my future. My family and friends continue to support me in so many ways and I am filled with humbleness and gratitude for the love they show towards me.

My mind still roils in confusion much of the time. Scattered thoughts, a feeling of being disconnected, loose ends and lack of focus are commonplace.I eagerly await a time when I am more focused, have more intention than just getting through an hour, a day or a week. Yet time keeps passing and I know that I am making some progress.

How can a 30 year old man that is much wiser actually made the most absurd thing to his own Family but didnt even feel guilty? comments please..

i just cant stop thinking.....

i really pity my grandma, she may looks fine on the outside, but only God knows how she feels, infact i can see them. why must you keep this from me, you always shared stuffs with me but not this time? you tried to cover up your son? or are you afraid that if i know i might make it look worse? i will infact i did! is he a man of the house or just a stupid little kid. i hate you uncle, i dislike your attitude. sucks! rude! ungrateful! yes i speak my mind. so do think of what i said to you! if not because of my grandparents, i would long leave this house.

I have to accept that this experience and this process is simply what it is and is something that I must go through. I can't fix it, make it disappear or rush it. It is frustrating, maddening at times and is something that challenges my very essence.

Anyway, i have been reading books just for a simple pleasure itself. School is starting soon. and i would love to go to school. i hope everything will be fine, not as i expected it to be. I am having good spans of time as well in which I feel a sense of optimism. The company of good friends and family members has been the greatest help to me. Love allow me to talk my way, listening to all my attempts to define how this feels. He allow me to cry when the sorrow or fear overwhelms, offer hugs and words of wisdom and encouragement as well as giving me the ability to laugh again. I truly do not know how I would have gotten this far without them...without you. I just wanted to let all of you know how very much I appreciate your support and the comfort of your words. Dear friends, nearby or here in cyberspace, you mean the world to me. And Love,you are the closest to me,in my heart. i love how it feels when your arms envelop me. Hearing your voice, the music of your laughter or see your smile, to touch your face, kiss your lips, smell your skin and hope to wake up seeing you beside me. :D

Oh sugar, im so missing you. he's away again on a fishing trip at tanjong pinang and will be back on monday. Again lonely weekends! Today was okay as cousins came over. Im done reading all the library books i borrowed. And at night, watched SUMPAH POCONG with cousins. Everyone lying together happily watching. It was awesome!

Next week will be another babysitting week for me. But i do enjoy it. Love came once to accompany me. Will force him to come down too this week:)) and i miss my friends so much. been busy. everyone is busy anyway. So yeah, do take care and if there's plan tomorrow do call me. Im bored alone at home. cherrios and nights lovely readers.

2009-03-21T14:45:00.013+08:00

Once upon a time, all the 8 girls decided to meet. when the day comes, many of them couldnt make it as they have have their own very reasons. So we fatiqah, witri and i decided to go on with the plan without them.(you girls owe us for dissapoint us:P).

As always, hungry all the time
Malu2 kucing, but she's more hungry than me

impatiently waiting for the food, fights begin, and pizza hut turns to pizza hit
serve me quick can
this was the place where we scare the bangla's off

beware paparazzi behind

majulah singapura

sweet roses

fat showing off those minah's poses

wit always with her binatang peliharaan, this time BULL!

sweet daisies

oh my! i met my darling kinah!!! im sososo missing her...

im so in love with the song just dance and to the extent of making my bestie look like her. hehs

lastly had desserts with faisya and the f's parents.

slurrpps..

off home sweet home.

very tired.

imagine from msq to town to ps and back cityhall.

currently at home chatting with love. i am so missing him though we just met yesterday. we couldnt webcam now as he's at knoxy place. and he will be off for soccer later. and maybe rain is pouring soon. that means i couldnt have dinner with him. oh baby, lets go eat sabsuka la. haha. once again i had a great time with ya yesterday.im gonna be a part time babysitter next week. lucky its my fav littlecousin. he got big mouth like me:)

till then. happy weekends

2009-03-19T16:34:00.006+08:00

presenting the Fellas,

ladyKYNN feat KAThoipolloi

After all the hard work she put in, she ended up EMO-ing.

no more dresses

no more cute tops

no more slippers

no pump shoes

no handbags

no heels

JUST SNEAKERSandSHORTS!

our casual wear

Hip hop better wake up..Haha well this post is just random, we're not real hip hoppers or typical street wearers.

MUSIC IS UNIVERSAL

concepts and fashion do fades.

the inner style in you remains.

dont try to be someone your not.

just stay cool and rock!

2009-03-16T19:15:00.000+08:00

The barbeque pit on the 13th-14th was a success. though many of my girls couldn't make it. (no comments la k.) as long as the closest 3 angels cum devils wit, fat, jam were there is more than better, we had a great time seriously. well when we meet we always had great times right? no matter how bad our lifes are but went we meet, everything changes and we do treasure the time the very moments, and make it a fun and happy ones. jammy and fatty left at around 4 am. thanks once again for coming down. much appreciated! and bestfriend, thanks for accompanying me the whole time. though we are shagged, but we do had greatgood times. the best thing was waking up seeing love on the right and dear bestfriend on the left! oh, you guys completes me.

did i say LOVE? sape eh love? haha okay, im more than happy to say that im officially attached! with my dear dear ein. not only that. he did surprised me with a belated birthday cum favourite cake of mine with a gorgeous gold watch. preloved! i love you so much Love, thanks for everything. and to make everything a success one, he actually planned this with witri. korang jahat eh. hehe terima kasih sayangs... not forgetting the boys, they are good at cracking jokes. i had a blast time! only i dont have anys of their photos taken. its a pity. so yeah let me say this, KYNN IS HAPPY WITH WHAT SHE HAS NOW. sorry takmo envy2 eh. hehe and not forgetting the crabs catching!, chef yan mayonise!, big eater wit!, and Love!

PHOTOS

wonder what is wit looking at..
be good babes! hehe

wit: you, dorang amik gamba kite la.

me: wait i want to eat!!

here come take a pic of us!

jammy feat fatty!

thanks for coming yaw..

they are enjoying.

not sure of what. haha

alala sweetnye. cos fat is the one taking! cheers!:P

nie lagi cute. happy dok!

the sisters. look the same eh? :D

wit was asked to do it but she's not qualified yet.

so kak shikin la yg uat. but nice right? jangan marah:)

so what my bestfriend is small.

she's strong okay!

the yummy super love coffee cake!

from my love, he is sweet!

thanks love!

knox, this real eh not act one eh. hahha

we used to be so close la kan.

2009-03-09T01:00:00.001+08:00

"It’s not always the BIG decisions that has the power to impact your life dramatically. Sometimes it’s the smallest of decisions, the ones that you don’t give much thought, it is those decisions that sometimes have far reaching effect."

i hope i didnt,but i might have.

2009-03-06T00:08:00.002+08:00

i want watch this please!!!
sorry it M18!
once again M18, sorry girls:), wait long2 kays..
hahahahaha okay somebody above 18 bring me pretty please...
and tomorrow come quick, cravings for seoul garden..
and im gona have my oreo cheesecake+ben&jerry's+donuts.:))
okay im putting in tons and tons of weight.
mind me.
nights..

2009-03-04T19:13:00.002+08:00

hola lovely readers..

so yeah my flu, running nose and fever are finally gone. weekends is great. spent with family at changi beach and had dinner at simpang to celebrate grandparents birthday and their 45 years of marriage. long huh? well i hope to live that long with my dear ones too. not only they got to see their children grow but also their grandchildren's too. im kinda scared if my granny were to leave me. i really want her to actually be there on my wedding and even see my children. i cant imagine how my life would be w/o her. im just too dependent on her. everyday i would wake up and everything would be ready. foods are cooked, house are cleaned. sometimes i feel sorry for her. as im the only girl in the house, what or how would the house be when she's gone? can i actually cook for the family? can i really do the house chores? 'reti ke aku nie?'

so i actually made the first step today!
woke up early morning and asked her whether she's going to the market or not. so yeah ill be accompaning her. but too bad i fall asleep again. haha! so woke up and she just came back from market. i had my bath and breakfast and actually helped her cook. today's menu is Laksa! then i hang the clothes to dry and fold them. swept the floor. and this time really clean my room. while cleaning, ive found some old photos and birthday cards. it was nice seeing/reading them after a long time. how old ive actually grown.:) and then the store room, i clean part of it, mostly my shoes. throw away the old shoes which i think i dont need them anymore. so yea there's plenty more space for footwears:)

aunt came.
and had lunch together. had a little chat. about so many things. i just love talking about so many issues. as long as they can tolerate my nonsense im fine with it. so yea watched tVs shows from fav Suci to cinta fitri, amazing race asia and style star in between. had karaoke session and here i am blogging. talked to dear bestfriend on the phone and she goes *$^#@*&

had shopping with dear bestfriend yesterday. as usual i'll always end up shopped more than her. sunnguh tak fair! i wanted to save for school stuffs and new handphone but she ruins it all. haha and she have the guts to ask me for another shopping marathon this friday. witri, i feel like killing you okay! so yea about money issues i do have a so called angel and devil.
so called
angel: mr farihin
devil: ms witri
WHY? farihin will always advice me on stuffs that are necessary and those which are not. but witri will always go like'you, ni lawa, you pakai kene, beli lah you, lawa sey' *&^%$#&*%$#! and i will go okay! and i bought it. but farihin will go, NO! you have alot of clothes but you just wont wear them more than 10 times! wow sungguh the garang okay. to think back i never ever think of using them more than 10 times ever before! haha okay he's cute ok!:) but sometimes when he's being good, he'll let me have them. hehe. its just my habit, if i were to buy something, ill always tell them, more of asking their opinions. so yeah they will be either the good or bad adviser, at one go. so hoipolloi please eh, controlled! haha

talking about shoppings. people may be asking why i never work? going to 5 months of holidays and i never even worked at all. oh slack sungguh ye saye nie. thats why im getting fatter, putting on weight. argghhh!! to you dont tease me anymore okay, im slimming down:P
what i dont understand is those working people, they worked almost every single day but still claim that they do not have money/broke. craps man. who want to entertain kan. better rot yourself at home. or maybe korang nie pelokek tak? hehe. perangai take care

okay its been awhile since i last blog hop. so yea i do visit some blogs today. and it somehow surprise me, like hey who are you to critisize others? i know your big, but only in size. ooppss! you are nobody la babe, i just think your posts is full of shits. like seriously. it make me laugh. if you're a beauty queen ke ms spore universe ke takpe la. nak mirror? haha okay i dont wana bitch around here, it does not concerns me anyway. but thanks you make me laughed! haha pelik la orang these days.

sometimes its really really hard to make people understand what you really mean.
Patience do works for that very moment.
but it wont last long.:(

and yea girls is friday confirmed?:) im looking forward.

okay saye rindu kamu. your crapy jokes. your clumsy face. your cute smile. your nice smell. the ever great companion. That's only You.
mr bunny, i miss you.
am i wrong to say that?

2009-02-28T15:52:00.008+08:00

running nose and cough just dont go away!
its weekENds!
Saturday, and its raining. how bored it is.
grandma's birthday celebration is postponed to idk when.
so was thinking to go zouk tonight.
and coincidence knox thinking of going too.
but Farihin is no where to be found here in Singapore.
so please do come back soon.
so all the three of us will go party together.
and kills our weekend boredom.
we counting on you.
pity knox, he'll go alone if there's no you:(
cheErs....

2009-02-24T15:30:00.001+08:00

Feed A Flu, Starve A Fever

While I was having my late breakfast, my cousin(Asri) said something very profound (at least to me it is).

He said that the way to cure fever and flu is that we should feed a flu while starve a fever. That is to say that when you are having a flu, you should eat more to get rid of the flu. While if you are running a fever, you should not eat so that it would get better.

I told him that this is the first time that I am hearing this but he told me that it was common knowledge.

But im having both fever and flu+cough. so what should i do? i hate sickness. i will lost my appetite (even when there's nice foods in front of me), always moody and easyly angry, heavy headache, and really hate to be disturb. so when im sick, please leave me alone or i'll vent my anger to you. sorry! right now i really need to rest, i just got 4 hours of sleep yesterday. being sick is a horrible feeling, almost like dying, only with a better chance of recovering.

And to someone that is having a toothache now, get well soon so we could hang out and crank lame jokes together. drink bubble tea and eat donuts.:) thought of dropping by for lunch but im too weak to do so. so yea meet up real soon.

And to my dear girl, stay happy, less worries, enjoy every single time in your life. once you lose it, that's it, no turning back..

cherrios!

bottom line, do take care of yourself and stay healthy!
dont take drugs:>
i want go pasar malam can? anyone?

2009-02-23T15:29:00.007+08:00

I would rather say im LUCKY, somehow.

Ka-Ching!:)))

2009-02-19T17:16:00.001+08:00

SENTOSA!!!

and back home..
tired great fun day with my babes..
we may look different, come from different background, with different attitude,,
but when we are together,
we become ONE, united girls..
and of course bunch of crazy monkeys..:))

2009-02-15T18:26:00.001+08:00

BREAKOUT, a quality performance featuring KOREA's award winning B-BOYS was definitely a Blast!! from start, they never fail to make us laugh. their dance choreography was fantabulous. as usual I expect more dance, but however their comedy works for many, in fact everyone having a great time but never we all expected that there are more dance moves and utterly brilliant beat-boxing after the show. which we thinks it'd all ended, they came out with another round of their very own performance and gives us a hell of great time. enthralling performance with upbeat and enthusiastic audience. I have a great time yesterday! thanks to you, for the birthday treat. and this will be the bestest birthday treat this year!!!

Not forgetting my lovely uncle itam and kak ollie that bought me a pink adidas sneakers. I was so touch by the card and msges too.it says,"Much as we want to get you what you like, but we didn’t know, so we think of your future, shoe which will bring you up a journey to success and should there be at any time you think you are not be love, you meant more in our lives.. especially your dear itam uncle. cheers! "... issint it sweet? in fact their young age, they treat me more than their niece. they will be a good parents for their kids. I love both of you so much. and kak ollie, thanks for acting/being a mom to me. muackss..

Daddy, though its wrong to say this, but seriously I envy how you treat your other kids with so much love and care and with the fact that I don’t get those anymore. the thought of you celebrating your child birthday with a super big cake yesterday, somehow pictures the pasts. how you used to make every year of my birthday happens. every single year without fail you made birthday parties for me, but after you married your wife, and settled with your kids, you’ve forgotten my big day. even sometimes youre not sure yourself about my age. dad, yes you pampered me with your money. but I need your love dad. remember, I only have you, how I wish you actually remembered that your daughter here only have you, a daddy's love which I don’t even get a mommy's love since little! yes im jealous and it saddens me seeing how happy your family is now, your kids hugging you and all. it hurts dad. but too think all back again, I shouldn’t be angry, cos ive got what I wanted since little. you pampered me with gifts,clothes,toys,holidays. you showered me with your love. but when it all gone now, and though im already a young adult, I still need your love and to actually be in someone's arm. show me love!

I miss having a man in my life

lovely couples! thanks for the 'secrets' talks and those gifts..

2009-02-14T10:12:00.005+08:00

hey guys,

Don’t Give Girls Fake Hopes

dont show your care, your love, say "i love you", but all you will say later is;

im sorry but you're too good for me, i love you but im scared that i cant make you happy
im sorry but i still love my ex-girlfriend, you know we've goon through a lot
im sorry but the pain of my past still lingers and im scared
im sorry but you deserve a better man than me. im not good for you

and it goes on.....

in the first place, if you're not sincere in dating her or still cant forget your pasts, than Dont Date!
if youre dating a girl, show your care, call her every single day, say those three words, I LOVE YOU but in the end you will leave her for some lame excuses than i advice just forget it. those three words if u mean it, is hard to say. but if youre the kind that used those words to everyone and call everyone love, baby and all, tell her or she would get the wrong idea. or worst had fall for you and in the end she got hurt herself. so fcuk your attitude and dont make good girls cry

big girls don't cry

why i said all this? 3 girls came and tell me the same thing.
and i'd experience it myself too.
girls are fragile.
love, sincerity and trust is all they ask for.
they dont have a toy heart, mind you!

happy Vday people.
okay time check. it's early morning and im blogging.
okay i know first time wake up early.
so yea enjoy your weekends.
im excited about BreakOut yaw!

2009-02-13T16:55:00.004+08:00

So who are the friends who would be there for you when you are sad, in trouble, worried, happy, stress? Who are the people who would leave little msges or concern when you are troubled or sad. Who are the ones who would meet you up and talk things out with you? Who are the ones who would make time for you when you freaking need them the most. Who are the ones who would offer 24 hotline service when you need someone to talk to, even when midnight strucks? Who are the ones who wouldnt ignore you? Who are the ones who would scold and advise you for the mistakes you make? Who are those who would tell you, you meant something to them? Maybe not by words but by actions? What's the use of saying love you miss you and hugging each other whenever you guys see each other? . These people does exist. Yeah. It takes two hands to claps. It takes ten years to build a freaking friendship and one day to break it. And its just sad when things are one sided. When you cherish something so much yet the other party might not even give a damn about it, somehow. Or like you didnt meant to break a friendship because of some reasons but you just did with no bad intentions. Its hard to mend a scar in a friendship.So treasure them! And i love my best friend! miss Witri, we've been through a lot more than love birds would experience. a lot like love babey!

And also. Vday is coming. But why only give flowers on Vday? Whats the point. I mean seriously. Wont it be sweeter to receive flowers on any other ordinary day. Like imagine having one bouquet of flowers on your hand and the next thing you see another girl holding another bouquet on her hand? Its kind of weird (Okay its weird) dont you think. And also whats the unique thing about giving or receiving flowers then. I think roses are just too common to the max, dont you think! Hahahah. Sunflowers, tulips or daisies are the best. Handpluck would be dopest! Idk. Thats my point of view. But still i dont favour flowers just yet. I'm still in 18 :} Till i'm older. Flowers are just to buy girls on Vday. HAHAHAA. I'm looking forward to my online clothes arriving in about i dont know how many more days :} and witri, please dont make me buy more. Hohoho! okay happy dating/celebrating/romancing love birdies:))))

2009-02-11T15:39:00.001+08:00

just about to enter, see, be in happiness zone

it comes to an end

trust your love ones
dont accuse without knowing the truth
dislike something, blur it out
patience are the key to everything
think before you do or say something
dont be selfish, think of other's feelings
take it easy, dont rush

hey people, lets do a proper update today. yesterday was a music day for me. stayed home and downloaded new musics, read up music news, gossips about artists, and browsing through music videos. im not that well yesterday but much beeing entertain at home onlin e-ning with witri. we shop online looking at nice tops, dresses. and as im in love with leopard prints now, she help me to search for it too. it was fun. and I finally update my mp4. replace old songs to new ones. okay im desperately waiting for my wild child movie to load. I want to watch it soon. watched part of it, and loved it! so ends my day wishing my cute aunty and miss liyana happy birthday. li, aku miss kau okay! and not forgetting talking on the phone with dear bestfriend for like 2 hours++. da macam matair or what! haha. we talked about life, career, marriage and almost evrything..

and yea not forgetting its world's bestfriend week!!! so maybe going out later with dear besfriend. and that msgs is sweet indeed. I like the eyes description part.. and also not forgetting those dear friends, jammy rocks, qas the singer, my only ama, darling jian wei, fizi mat motor, jacqueline big mouth, sherie good girl, and all sec 1A1 to 5A3 that have been friends for 5 years and adam the long2 friend, 11 yrs okay! and also the ones that graduated after sec 4s, li, dee, j, f.a, fir. and many2 more. miss those times. I miss my classrooms, those lessons, mery's talk about relationships, teasing farna, asking sweeets from ama and ass smacking. oh I just miss my secondary school days. esp the teachers, gossips with rabiah, act attentive with yani, pampered with cheah, go crazy with jumiliah, gereks with sahira and become number's expert with johnson and norsiah. and yea canteen foods much preloved too! miss campings. be it sec1, sec 3, any all peer leader camps. okay I miss my peer leaders, dance mates, and my kinah darling, where are you babey?

so yea as about me. im doing fine. if not just act like you do. so yea im taking everything one step at a time. and I don’t want to rush things as I don’t want to feel regret. hope time flies soon, though I kinda don’t like the school and all but I want to keep my time busy doing something useful. so yea I want to study!

i miss this people
ill be faithful to you. if happens you were to marry another. ill be more than happy for you.
oh tuhan, lindungi lah dia
sesungguhnya aku amat menyayangiya

2009-02-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

i had a hell of a time today!
to hell with your love

super hilarious. just not my day today. thanks to you guys, you made me hate male-beings now! can you imagine today itself, there's like a numbers of guys blaming me of giving them hopes of being together with them and some even confessed their love towards me. some even offer to wait for me till im ready to have them. but the most ridiculous one is that i dont even know you, but you can say that you're in love with me! damn! hey cmon, to all of ya, ive never once went dating with you, some i dont even know you and some i just treat you as strictly friends, not more than that. how many times should i make myself clear that im not ready for any relationship and no hopes please! i never once treat you all like i have feelings for you or something or even fucking flirting. not once! okay let me get this straight, im in love with my ex- boyfriend. got it?! so get your hands off suckers! yes im being harsh here. reason being? you guys make me sick! totally sick! you dont know how to please a girl, youre not for me cause im hard to please! im sure you cant tolerate me. i got attitude problem. very stubborn hard-hearted. not ambitious and always serious. always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. not hardworking. slow, blur, untidy and and not organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts.. prone to illnesses. not romantic. dont like children. not loyal. no social abilities yet easily jealous and not money cautious. yes im weak am not the girl you all wanted so stop dreaming and get your ass outta my life. so what valentine's is near? im not gona celebrate it. who cares. and i hate whoever that gave my number, email to those guys. you guys are just a bunch of idiots. esp to those that talk bad and making up stories about my love. hatred!

kick your ass suckers!

thanks for cousin and his clan for giving your thoughts and make my dinner time a great one. its nice sharing this with you guys rather than girls. why? jealousy will happen, who on earth will be happy if one of theirgirlfriend is well liked by many guys. why i said this? because it happened and it broke my friendship with an old bestfriend of mine.

"If I were given a dollar for every time you were in my thoughts, I'd only have one because you never left them."

2009-02-04T17:14:00.002+08:00

CAPRICORN WOMAN

A tall slim, cool and quiet woman.(i talk a lot) Once she is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman.
She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comments or criticize but she will completely ignore that person.(ill criticize if there's a need to:))
She hate plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that you are not being sincere. She real flower and it's scent.(only one type i adores) She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are a type of a guy who wear your Jean one month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her. (TRUE)
She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. (can consider:))
She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like loosing face.(i WILL) She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter. (L)
She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown.
She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will do what she wants to do only. (yes)
She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date.
She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you loose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do.
She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in "Luck".
If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be please. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".(chEERs)

if you want to know about yours,
tag or ask me and ill email you.
cheers

2009-02-03T18:50:00.002+08:00

Heavy Pictures.
this is what happen when girls meet.
:)

tired day..

i cant fuction no more.
its driving me insane.
i need you.
i want you.
cant you see this is killing me.

2009-01-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

.results are out.
.i got what i wanted.
.but still wondering.
.and still deciding.
so wait and see:D

anyway went TP super early in the morning today as WIT called to accompany her to appeal for the courses in TP as she got SP. so yeah i took my time to wake up, watched tv first before shower:)). took my time to get dress. called her up and meet qas, elfi,kentot,faiz and acik at TP bustop. went in and 'kedebakkedebom' betul! waste my time! where you can actually appeal online and you dont have to be there to appeal then semue macam paham nak go TP itself .. arggghhh!!! geram je. okay2 after all done, went breakfast at macdonalds. sit talk sit talk. and i forgot, the most ridiculous course i heard is kentot's. oh boy, its fated la dey:)) hehe peace! then off to safra to bowl. as usual, i was the lousiest one there. ayie's the man! haha. after the game went tampines mall. yes finally bought myself a denim top. walk and walk, bought chicken wing and bubble tea and bus-ed to bedok. bought waffles and walked home.
what a tired day.
went home shits happens.
how i hope i was home later.
but whatever it is patience kynn.
just smile like u dont mean it:)
anyways for whoever that is going to CITY ALIVE tomorrow, have fun! *sobsob

goOd night earthliNgs
good night to you too. been thinking of you. and i think i miss you so much.
:))

2009-01-26T17:06:00.001+08:00

the v.o.i.c.e within

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh... So much for my happy ending

beautiful night. best companion. nice foods. how i hope it wont end.

and now i miss you.

here's the photos at jammy's crib.
last friday.
karaoke session plus photo taking session.
much <3

happy Chinese New Year.
i feel like going visiting too.
wearing cheongsam:))
get dress. collect money. hehs
happy holidays lovies..
much love!
KYNN

2009-01-23T22:18:00.001+08:00

"It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives."

hello earthlings...
its been awhile since i last do a proper update.
so here it goes..

i always wanted 2008 to end and looking forward for 2009. but did i make use of the new beginning_new year? NO! not at all. ive been thinking a lot of stuffs that i think it didnt matter much. keep thinking of others that just didnt care much about me. reason being? im just too nice. and being too nice is no good. you wont gain much or youll just end up feeling sucks. so yesterday, i talked to god before i sleep, which i always do every night before i go to sleep. but yesterday was a bit longer as i shared with him my feelings, thoughts, and everything. yes he cant comments on what you say, but he will lead you to the right path. and he did! he answered my prayers. when i woke up, i feel so relieved. as if someone had gave me a tight hug and that everything bad is gone forever. and i wake up with a smile:). and therefore i decide to begin everything all over again from today onwards. a change indeed! the changes will be seen in me soon. what for being sad over the past things and cry for someone or think of stuffs that just wont happen? be happy! yes ive been saying to myslef that word for so many times just to remind me to be HAPPY. i used to be that crazy happy little kid. so why not be one now. afterall theres still daddy that pampers me. theres friends that always makes me go crazy. and family that loves me. so no worries, cause everything will be just fine. be happy.....
and im sure the one for me is just nearby. so wait patiently..

another thing is, my conversation with witri's yesterday really wakes me up somehow. without you even realising that girl. haha. somehow, i know that my future lies in my hand. i need to make it happen. so why sit around? i have to start it all now. i have a decision to make. but will only confirm tomorrow after discussing with daddy, kak olie and uncle. and i heard there's something planned for me tomorrow. hoorays. i have no fear on the upcomings as i will be well prepared:))

you got what you wished for. but my last wish is not granted. *&^$##^()*&^%

aniway today was fun. which was spend with my babes. do update about it soon.
photos will be uploaded soon too once i got it from kak fatty kite:D

and to fareez takmo makan gaji buta! haha. can bankrupt if all workers were to be like you:D
and to izzat. hahaha mangkuk betul. maafnye. funny la sey. and yea its your fault of not putting ur name. so its not my fault. have fun in NS. da botak. no more wig! haha suro bagi wig, pelokek.
and thanks for the encouragements:))

so goodnight earthlings.
may god bless you all:)))
and remember, if you think you are alone, god will always be there for you.
no worries:))))

"What's the use of worrying?
It never was worth while,
So pack up your troubles in your old kit-bag,
And smile, smile, smile."

2009-01-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

I can't escape the thought of you
Even in my dreams you are there
It's not fair how your gone
and how you're moving on so fast

while I am still living in the past

The past is what we always tend to look back on,
but remember the future is what we look to, to move forward.